I've been sinning and I'm in need of repentance. So here's my prayer.
Lord, forgive me please because I know you've been giving me messages for those around me and I haven't been doing my job of getting those messages out for people to hear (well in this case read). I've allowed the enemy's voice and my own disobedience stand in the way of doing what I know you've called me to do. I've allowed that voice in my head that says to me "no one is going to understand your gibberish and your grammar is all out of place. Look at that punctuation is wrong. You call yourself a writer, yeah no one is going to understand this much less enjoy it. Oh, you're going to try to explain that experience and use that scripture, umm yeah naw that isn't used in the right context. Lord, I am so sorry!!! Please forgive me! Please, Lord forgive me!! I'm so upset with myself right now because I've allowed time to waste. Here I have notebook after notebook with notes, that I know you wanted me to share that was to help someone (even if it was just one). Even if that person wasn't to find these writings until March of 2025, you told me to do it and I didn't. Momma always used to say "delayed obedience is still disobedience." My delayed writings could have been used to help someone and it should have been written and shared in some type of form just as you requested. And even in the last week alone, you've told me to write this and I started doing something else and didn't do it! Disobedience! Please Lord forgive me! Honestly right now, I'm scared! Will you accept my sorry! I know that you will but my feelings and my gut are saying no. I missed my chance! Even as I'm typing this out and I know others may read this, I'm feeling like this is what I need to do but I really want to hit the backspace button because no one will understand my pain. You really aren't going to forgive me. And the words, you messed up is floating in my head. Those are my feelings and I'm so glad that you are understanding of my feelings but you want to remind me of what your word says. Your word says to me... The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. He will not always chide; neither will he keep anger for ever. He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us. Psalms 103:8-12 Thank you Lord for accepting my sorry and repentance. Give me the strength that I need to do what you've called me to do. Help me to be bold in my approach and do your will. Remove fear and doubt that will creep in to keep me from being obedient. Lord, I ask that you create in me right now a clean heart and an open ear to hear you clearly. In Jesus Name Amen Want to read more Psalms 103 Romans 8: 35-39 Proverbs 3:5
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Jessica ReneeHey gals (and guys)!! I'm Jessica, but my friends call me Jess. I'm a believer of Jesus Christ, the one who was born of a virgin, was beaten and bruised for my sins and then on one bright sunny Sunday(those are my favorite days), He rose from the dead for my sins. I'm a wife to this loving, caring and extra silly guy named Cornelius and the mom to Cornelius and lil miss Elsie & lady Priscilla. I hope and pray that this blog will encourage you as you "intentionally" seek Jesus Christ to be the head of your life. So grab your laptop(iPad, phone, etc.), a cup of coffee(or tea) your favorite blanket curl up on the couch and let's chat, cause girl I have some stories to share with you!!! Archives
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